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[01 Aug 2006|06:27pm] |
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Hello...I'm new...My name is Julia. I have been cutting for 4 years. I like to look at communities like this because I see that they help and sometimes help me feel not as alone...
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[01 Aug 2006|07:01pm] |
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Angel vs Devil
The need choking
My heart racing
The glass seemingly calling
The problem not facing
Hands shaking from the anticipation
CAn't sit still
My mind trying to make a diversion
But this nightmare has it filled
Do I really deserve this pain?
I don't think the answer
has ever been more clear
So I pull out the glass
"Come on, it's not too late to change your mind..."
"NO!!! YOU DESERVE THIS,
DON'T EVEN THINK ABOUT CHICKENING OUT!"
As it makes the first cut
I know this is what I had to do
Everything that's gone wrong
plays through my mind
And a little bit of relief
goes through my body
as the blood makes a puddle
Not being able to stop myself
Soon both my forearms
are just a red river
But it's still not enough
My heart pounds louder
as I make the realization
This is my last day on Earth
So I say my silent goodbyes
As my mind screams in agony
I raise the blade high
and I end this tragedy
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| OMFG!! |
[01 Aug 2006|11:19pm] |
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I can not believe what I just saw...I was watching that show on WE about cutting and there were 3 women that have dealt with cutting for years and when it got to the end it showed that the first two women hadn't cut in 90 and 180 days and then it got to the last woman and SHE CUT RIGHT THERE ON TV!!! The moment I saw the blood my forearms started aching...I can't believe that they allowed that. I mean, I understand that they try to get it as real as possible but you have to draw the line somewhere..I mean goddamn...
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